Monday, February 15, 2010

The morning routine had me so absorbed this a.m. that I didn't really glance out a window before leaving the flat. So when I stepped out of the building, the sight of snow falling took me completely by surprise. Snow -- lots of it, really coming down. None of your gentle, lyrical flurries. The air thick with big, flat flakes dropping as if they meant business. Not that there was any accumulation -– it all melted on contact with street/sidewalks. But it had the look of the kind of weather that could turn genuinely serious at any moment.

But beautiful. Lovely. Quieting urban hubbub the teeniest bit in the way that snow does.

Some folks walked with umbrellas opened, others with collars turned up, shoulders hunched. (I fell into that second group.) And snow continued coming down, the tires of passing cars making a sssshhh-ing noise on wet pavement.

Temperatures eased overnight, bringing rain. Lots of rain. Not as pretty, but it has its upsides -- apart from watering earth that does not normally get much rain through much of the year, it washes away lots of salt and dog poop. (Salt: tossed everywhere in feverishly excessive amounts at the first sight of falling snow. Dog poop: an unfortunate aspect of daily life in this barrio.)

Meanwhile, I've been riding busses around the city center a whole lot lately. Forgot how much of an adventure squeezing one of those vehicles through old, narrow streets can be -- up and down hills, with only inches to spare on either side. Considering all that, it is amazing (in a hair-raising way) how certain bus drivers hurtle along, as if the speed of light was the goal, and a miracle that they don't leave a trail of flattened pedestrians in their wake. Makes for good, harrowing entertainment.

Approaching warp-speed:



I challenge anyone to sit through one of those rides and ponder the problems and miseries of their life. With the continuous stopping, starting and heaving about, it's impossible. One has to slip into a state of urban zen, existing in the present, high-intensity moment, hands gripping whatever will keep you anchored in one place, body jerking this way and that with the movement of the vehicle.

Good therapy, though not necessarily of the variety that might promote inner peace. It will, however, promote a huge sigh of relief when feet hit pavement at the end of the ride.


España, te amo.

rws 7:18 PM [+]

Monday, February 08, 2010

Recent moments:

-- Making the return trip home on the Metro from the city center two nights ago, the train blessedly less crammed with tired travelers/commuters than usual. Next to me stood a 30ish male, normal looking at first glance, neither unpleasant nor memorable. The kind of individual who would blend into a crowd easily. If, that is, he hadn't been so restless, so anxious, with something clearly eating at him. Fidgeting and biting his nails in a way that became hard to ignore (being right next to me and all). And that's how the entire trip went -- fidgeting and nail-biting. Except for the moments when fingers began probing nostrils in an open, not wildly attractive show of behavior one really should limit to (a) home or (b) the office of one's therapist. A person apparently so deeply submerged in whatever state of mind he had going that he was 100% unaware of the strange display he was putting on.

-- Waking up pre-dawn, as the sky began getting light, to the sound of birds producing music that could only come from joyful hearts. Dawn comes late here, given Spain's strange time-zone configuration, so the burst of song doesn't happen at an hour that could get cranky individuals feeling the impulse to open a window and toss footwear at the noisemakers. Instead, I can feel a sleepy smile take form on my face as happy music registers. Then I burrow deeper into the sheets and drift off.

-- And speaking of drifting off, the topic of the language spoken in one's dreams continues coming up in conversation, and after devoting far too much mental hooha to pondering my nighttime adventures it feels like it's been a long while since I've had dreams with dialogue -- talkies, if you will. Or at very least I have no memory of verbal communication in my dreams -- not for a years. Most of what returns with me to waking life in is more like impressions than real memories -- images, feelings. I have to stop, quiet down and think about it before I experience anything more. And it's all stories sans talking.

Until recent conversations got me to turn my attention to dream activity, I had no idea this might be the case. But there it is. My dreams: silent movies. At least looking at them from a superficial perspective (and I can be as superficial as the next person). I get the feeling that there's no lack of communication happening -- just like there's no lack of dream activity, no matter how little of it returns to waking life with me -- it's just happening in a different mode from the five-senses model. I think.

My question: if my dreams are dialogue free, what is up with the recent tendency to wake up with music streaming through my teeny brain? More often than not in recent days, coming to consciousness happens with a soundtrack -- not an extensive one. One tune, on a repeating loop. And as often as not, not a tune I would consciously choose to start the day off with.

Getting out of bed and stumbling off into the day's first activity mostly seems to flush it out of my system, so we're not talking about any kind of real inconvenience. Just a quirky, transitory minor mystery.

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In the barrio of Chueca, Madrid:




España, te amo.

rws 8:08 AM [+]

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

Woke up early this morning, somewhere around 5 a.m., with music from Dr. Horrible streaming perkily through my sleepy brain. From that point on, I drifted between sleep and barely-awakeness, dreaming about being in a Dr. Horrible sequel. (And how bitchen would that be?) The dreams about the sequel actually featured original music, featuring some pretty respectable tunes.. Sometimes my subconscious kicks ass.

I made no effort to remember original music on waking, so it's all gone. The tunes from the original musical continue cycling through my teeny brain though, a soundtrack that has given this Tuesday a whole different feel from the garden variety weekday.

I have been astonished at the extremely high percentage of people I see lately wearing headsets in the street, in the Metro, on buses -- most listening to music, some blathering away in phone conversations. The latter make it much more difficult to tell who is a genuine self-talker (another contingent well-represented in recent days) and who is conversing with unseen individuals. Now that phone reception is possible in the Metro -- underground, between stations -- more and more people seem to be inflicting their private chats on the rest of us. Often not my idea of a great time. Ah, well. Provides motivation for bringing reading materials to lose oneself in.

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Today, looking up at the Ministerio de la Presidencia -- Madrid:




España, te amo.

rws 11:49 PM [+]

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